Losing my religion...

I started going to a new church starting in the beginning of October. Here's the thing...... I'm not sure I believe in a set God/god. I feel that there may be something out there, possibly, but I'm not sure what. I mean, seriously, do ANY of us really know if there's something out there for certain? When I'm singing at church... I feel like I'm lying. Praying feels like lies... because I don't believe in a set god. The good thing about the church I'm going to is that it's more of an energy, a source energy, than a set god. They still say Jesus, they still talk about God, so it kind of throws me off. I've been meaning to write about this for a long while now.. And I'm not sure that midnight is the right time, but at least I'm getting started on it and getting some of it out of my head. Now, for me, I think that there's something out there... We can't be JUST us, you know? I feel like it's something kind of like karma, maybe... That the universe is full of this electric energy and that each of us can, in some small ways, control it.. Mold it.. Bend it...