Yeah... I miss you..............

I was friends with a man for many, many, many years. We met in high school, and clicked pretty well.

We were damn near inseparable.

Due to me stupidly having a fit over breastfeeding and posting pictures of it (in hopes that it becomes normalized), we fell out.

I miss him... I miss him every damn day.

When I was in the hospital, I tried to reach out to him.. I tried to apologize.....

I haven't heard from him in a very, very long time..

I see his mom every so often, since my mom works with her. I talk with her, and I find out that he's doing alright.

I feel so pathetic and stupid for wishing he'd at least say "hello" some time.

He was there for me for everything, and I... **sigh**

I wasn't there for him, like he was for me...

He saved me so many times, and I feel like I did nothing for him.

I don't think, even after the time we've not talked, that I can forgive myself for letting him go...

I just.. I really hope that he's doing amazing, and that.. I don't know.. That maybe, somehow, he can forgive me.. That maybe we can possibly even get to be acquaintances again, if nothing else...

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If he happens to see this... Hello... I wish you well... I miss you...